Deepest desire-26 today

Over the past three years, I have worked 4 different jobs, lived in 4 different cities, visited 3 countries and went through other numerous life changes. In my life I have changed cities and schools every two years with an exception of college. I consequently have lost friends, started over too many times than I can remember. Some changes were truly out of choice but mostly circumstances changed in a blink of an eye and there was no escape but to deal with the change. My life has been full of uncertainty to the point that I wonder if anything is ever here to stay. Hence my deepest desire is for the uncertainty to settle. I yearn for the day when I will be sure of where I will spend my next birthday, my next Christmas at. In this moment of unknowing, I surrender my heart to the Lord. I need calmness in this never ending storm. All I need is just three sold years where I can have a reverse of the above maybe except visiting places for fun and not moving out of my home. I have learnt to say goodbye, I want to learn to hold on. To stay, to feel, to experience, to belong.......